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Some randome self explaining i need to do here. My FB comeback is for business and gaming purpose dear frenemies.

Yah! True friends know me better. Pfftt~

WARNING!!!...Bla bla bla.. Starts here!

Everday i pray i'll be forgiven by HIM and that people around me will also remember to forgive me. That incl. my BB, our families, friends, teachers, ustaz and ustazah, frienemies, enermies and nemesis.

And yours truly, some stuff are just too long long forgotten to remember what it was. And So rest assured all has been forgiven on my end. I hope the same will come my way too. And of coz halalkan makan and minum.

I hope to see another Ramadhan and I hope to see all my beloved ones to see thru another Ramadhan as well. May Allah bless us all, gives us strength, health, long lives, happiness and abundance of rezeki.

I dont think Im in depression, but Ive been crying myself to sleep. I worried that if its time of my passing every night and someone forgot to forgive me. Yah forgot, refuse is another thing.

I worry my akhirat savings is not enough. I worry if Im being asked if I ever ngaji and all i can make out is the 1st two pages of our holy Al Quran that incls. The Al fateha and the 1st page of Al-Bakarah.

Who am i kidding? Myself. Every year I would place this task on myself and every time Always.... Cannot make it one~ haiz*

Ya Allah forgive me OK. Help me please!!! Make ease for me.
Still trying.. Will die trying if i have to. But i will never give up!!

FIGHTING!!!!

Im done talking about things that I cannot change. Not because I've given up. But because I dont want to collect more negative points. And OK la I wanna let it be for now.. Chey~
And really I need a break. Rimas with whats going about and rimas thinking about it. So now- switch OFF mode

i'm back definately. Insyallah Amin.
I wish to stay this positive through out.

Im done crying and sulking. No more idling. Insyallah. I hope Im blessed and given the hidayah and made ease in everything that I do and Insyallah Success. Insyallah. Amin


Roger out!
Buchuk

Somtimes

Sometimes.. I wish
You would accept me for my differences..
You would welcome my family..
You would use nicer words on me.
You would see the things and the people that I've given up for you.

Im not perfect. Im lesser than that.
Yours truly,
Buchuk..

Noisy night..

Tonight is my second night sleeping in punggol and still its hard to sleep.

The first night was almost scary. Almost, i made myself busy with an american pie marathon till my eyes surrender and i just fell asleep not bothered by the almost scary feeling.

This round i've dragged my niece and nephew along. BB on night shift so, technically im alone in our room.

Living on the second floor facing a grass field is noisy at night. The frogs, crikets are really driving me nuts here. I rather the drillings and cranking sounds of contactors during the day.

Till the next time, gud nite Buchuk.